Speachless

I'm feeling pretty down these days. Actually, I'm feeling like nothing. I look at myself and see a big vacuum. Thinking better, the vacuum has more utilities than I have. It helps in chemistry and fisics studies or to preserve our food. I guess this post is getting too depressive and you are probably have no clue about the reason why.
If you understand portuguese or used Google translate someday to read this blog, maybe you've noticed I'm kind of depressive sometimes. I have low self-esteem and lately the only person in this world who can help me a little is my boyfriend. I don't think I'm pretty, smart or anything good.
But what I'm feeling these day is worse than anything I've ever felt. I look at my friends and it seems like I'm not really important for them. While they are talking, I just watch and nobody cares if I'm there or not. I just have no voice. I don't have anything interesting to say.
Maybe this is why I love the theater classes so much. It's the only place I really feel like I have voice. Ok, maybe not me, but my character, but it feels so good to have people's attention . I need it sometimes.
Reading this text I feel like a stupid needy only-child. I feel so idiot posting this, but I got to say it somewhere.
I swear I'll post something better next time. Keep reading and I promise you'll find out I'm not always this way.
XOXO